Words from Little Black Bird

You know when you first met someone and you feel something in your heart, like a sign or some call it chemistry, like a magnet pulls you to a certain direction?
Well, I felt it when I first saw him. His height put him quite on the spot among all others. I wouldn't say he looked friendly or very nice. I would use the word distant to describe him, like being polite but untouchable. Very quiet, barely heard his voice during all those two days spending in the formal surrounding office.
Then we all out for a city tour, and somehow he moved into the car which I was in and sat there next to me. Not so quiet, but not much words there also. Nothing really happened during the visit. Regardless of his status, I was never considered a non-Indonesian man to be in a relationship with. Never wish or imagine such thing at all.

Then the email came, someone saying about me having a fans...

Few hours later, another email came, saying he read my blog. Was asking myself if this was the one mentioned in the previous email. Which turned out to be true.
We chat through emais, back and forth. Then moved to blackberry messanger. Then into phonecalls, every night since then. And starting a few days ago, we go on skype.

Againts all odd moments in my life, this is the one most bizarre and unbelievable one.
I am in love, with this two times divorced man with two kids, who has just converted into being a moslem.
I am hopelessly in love, with him who gives me hugs and kisses and cuddles every night before I close my eyes to sleep. Whose voice is the last thing I hear before drifting into a peacefull sleep.
I am totally in love and looking forward to his visit next week.

I am in love.

And I am thankfull for an open path that lead him into my life, my path that giving us a chance to see if this whole thing will work out fine.

I am in love.

Really, when you know you are in love, should there even be an explanation of why, of how come?
You are in love...
It is a gift, a blessing, a moment of happiness.
Cherish it, enjoy each moments.
Be in love, spread your wings and fly up to the sky and reach for the love.

I am, really really am, in love.

To you, my little black bird will fly this letter up to where you are.

- 11 December 2011 -

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